Are you feeling energetically or creatively depleted. Or perhaps exhausted by being pulled in multiple directions by other people’s needs and desire. Do you feel like you have lost touch with the deep guidance of your own inner truth? Do you crave some time to rest in stillness and quietness but perhaps feel anxious about what might come up if you are willing to truly listen to your inner most truth?
Perhaps you need to welcome in a little winter for rest and interoception. To root down, restore; to reclaim your connection to your inner guide and find the strength to follow where it points.
Take a moment to visualise yourself as the most complete, confident and fulfilled version of your adult self. The version of you that can rise above anxiety because they find strength in the knowledge that they are loved and enough. How do they feel and how do they behave.
Now visualise yourself as your inner child. The vulnerable part of you that has perhaps not been listed to or loved they way that it ought to. The part of yourself that deep down is desperate to be acknowledged.
Now picture your adult self asking what it is that your inner child needs. What is it that causes it to feel fearful and what would it need to feel safe and strong again. How might your adult self be able to transform your child’s fear into knowing and insight?
Do you often worry that you are not enough or that you don’t have enough. Do you find that you spread yourself too thinly in the desire to do it all, to prove yourself to others or avoid letting people down? Or do you set yourself up with great expectations but then find yourself overcome with self doubt and then putting on the breaks at the last minute. Do you struggle with perfectionism and wish you had more carefree abandon? Are you holding yourself back from putting yourself into the world?
Perhaps you need to welcome in the gentle warmth of summer. A season of abundance and satisfaction – where we feel filled with a spirit of generosity and ready to pour our gifts into the world knowing that we have enough and are enough. Knowing that we were born whole and remain whole
Take a moment to consider how you might like to show up in the world if there was no way you could fail. What would you do? What would you make? How would you be? Who would you be? Close your eyes and allow yourself to be carried away by this vision. Or if you prefer words then allow yourself to write freely about what it is like to live out this dream.
Then pause and ask what is stopping you? Are there any voices that keep you small or hold you back? Who is that voice? What do they say do you/or fail to say to you? What fears or insecurities might they have been carrying that would hold them back from bringing their own gifts into the world? What might they have said to you if they felt full in themselves?
Now write down all of the small ways that you have shown up for yourself today. All of the little ways that you have put an ounce of yourself into the world. Without the judgment of whether it was successful by some measure – simply a gesture of offering up the gift of your spirit. Repeat this practice recognition daily for one week as you begin to gain confidence in your uninhibited self expression.